Meaning

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Words shut in my mouth don’t talk anymore.

In numbers, I spend my life

Body spent in a pain that is my luxury

I travel miles and miles to my blood

All the while, I too bleed

Memories of people haunt me

Cobwebs of feelings decorated on dust stained ceilings

Here, the winds flow free in between my fingers

The sky lights up and pours

I cry too- it has been long

Months are not months but years to me now

I feel so grown, so old

Yet, I know I am lying to myself.

Finding a person of my own

Body and soul, petrifies me

I feel unlovable, you see

I am just another person on just another planet

There is no grand meaning to my existence

And this is the ultimate truth of life- my life.

People whom you love- do they really love you?

Or just like anything else, you are a mistake

Cutting through a womb and generation

To exist where you are not meant to be-

And search for meaning in a mind dictionary.

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~insight07

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Boundaries

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These spaces between my fingers

Spaces within my thoughts

Fascinate me

They define one from another

Boundaries are essential

To mark ends and beginnings

To separate one from other.

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Spheres of my many many realities

Crash and swerve

There seems to be no boundaries here

No laws that apply here;

Facets of spheres and edges on periods.

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Stories that are true

Are false and unreal too.

Public spaces and private beings

Have boundaries too

But time? Does it have any?

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~insight07

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2020 | A Photo Journal

Hello Bloggers,

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays! I am wishing good health and warmth to all your loved ones. 🙂

While we will all remember this year for something quite unexpected, it has been a great teacher too. After spending so much time inside, art started materialising itself within these 4 walls as well.

With the year end drawing to a close, I would like to share some photographs that I deeply connected with. I would love to hear your thoughts on the same as well!

Drying inside

One with the shadows

*Words borrowed from Lord Huron

Fuel of everyday

Alone on the road

Stillness in difference

Stars on walls

Blooming in silent corners

Missed sunsets

Family time

How will you describe this year 10 years down the line?

~insight07

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20/12/20

Hello Bloggers,

I hope you have been well! It’s been a while since we caught up.

I can’t digest the fact that this year is ending. I am not in fantasies of everything becoming magically better as soon as we enter 2021. But there is hope of this ending in the coming year. And the fact that it started in 2020 makes it very monumental to me.

Focusing on smaller time frames, I went for a walk today after 3 weeks. Purple flowers and red leaves made me happy. What has made you happy recently?

With the onset of winters, mumma has prepared some home-made laddoos (dessert made with dry fruits and flour). I absolutely love stuffing my belly happy with it. 🙂

Even though I can’t really stand cold, winter means good food which in turn means a smiling Todi. Plus it doesn’t hurt that in the next ten days, I’ll have a break for six days. Hellllo, long sleeping hours and cozy blankets!

This year has really taught me ways to appreciate the little things in life, and the value of these little things in keeping me sane and satisfied.

Also, the value of persistence. This I can say confidently, because after nearly 5 months of learning Korean, I am finally able to understand some words and phrases in conversations while watching K-dramas. It is a small feat, but a big one for me since I am learning a new language after nearly 15-16 years. Let’s see where this progress goes!

Tell me, what is it that has cheered you on this year? What has made you smile at the end of impossible days?

Hear from you soon.

~Devika