People always talk in loud words
Loud voices booming off the four walls.
Silence steals syllables from my tongue,
Resonating within my being.
Skin that covers this flesh and bone
Hold scars that knives have left
In dreams that I see in the darknest nights.
I drown in a puddle of my tears
As voices whisper in my ears,
White light blinds my vision
Pushing me into the arms of dark.
Eyes closed, I see
I’m lost in remembrance of a sky
That hides from me each night.
Blood runs cold in my veins
Each time I think of
Tomorrow, day after, day after
What’ll happen next, and how?
Each time I breathe I feel within me
The weight of a thousand rocks
That press together on my chest
Making me sink lower, lower.
In moments of deepest grief
I remember you
The smell that lingers on your clothes
Memories that play in my mind.
Places hold onto ghosts of that time
Which is never coming back, never.
Moving on, how does one do that?
Zoom ahead by 15 years, only to realise
You’re reliving times when you were 15.
I try to understand world and its ways
A fineline that separates
Fiction from real
People from thoughts
Pain from life.
I’ll go on walking
With a smile frozen on my lips,
A song stuck in my mind
Which plays in forever loops
Singing words to me
That seem like mine.
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