Frailty

The frailty of a dark night
A leaf holding its green as it droops to the human touch
A pluck and it’s over.
Barks of endless trees in a crown
Over a moon that pulls the tide to robe
Its light beauty.
A lonely frail wave lulls a lonely mind to sleep
Thoughts become oceans then clouds
A reign that lasts for a few hours
Its light beauty comes down
To the leaf
To the forest.
I am where I am
A fish in a fishbowl
That could have been an ocean
That could have been a cloud-
Or maybe just a drop.

~insight07

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Empty and Spaces

Places that feel strange, yet familiar
Wind in the spaces between my fingers-
Can I claim this air clutched in my palm as mine?
Buildings with some bricks missing-
Eyes and cameras with filters peep in
It’s beachy, blushy cheeks in the cold of winter.
I paint flowers on an unbalanced pot-
One with a red snail and one with the sun
White clouds float with the aim of filling empty spaces.
Unknown faces crowd my mind through a known screen;
I am blue in this ocean of information
A fish and fisher at the same time.
Patience eats my mind and time,
A thought sits with me at nine
Can I be mad enough to believe this world exists only for me?
Demons exhale doubt at my sticky neck-
Even if I don’t see the sun
Even if I never see air
I feel it on my skin-
Existence is a personal experience.
In the chaos of everyday, I hang a string of warm fairy lights
And rest in its glow for the night.

~insight07

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Pixelated Lifestyle

Boundaries fade, no bricks no walls
Straight lines curve into horizons
Thoughts break and fall into the abyss
Clouds gather in a waterfall
All of me is all of the world
A collection of used air, stale breaths
Bones shiver and quiver in the cold
Sun sinks into the other whole.
Lines run a different direction
At the centre is a mind.
Parallel lives in the fabric of time
Muted existence in a pixelated lifestyle.

~insight07

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Straight spine

With a cracked bone in my body
I walk a mountain a time
Emotions have piled
Hours have piled
Time flows a muddy river.
They say hard work breeds a garden-
Autumn seems to have descended.
Warm colours trapped in leaves cry
Withering trees stand with a straight spine.
A white sky is a mirror
White sea shares its light-
Sun is melting in the over heated..
Cup of water that I drink each night.

~insight07

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Ordinary

The cost of being ordinary
There is no glory
No attention, no remembrance
No award kept aside for you
Waking hours are punishing, but no one can see the struggle
Each day work is considered minimal, even if it is a mountain to you
You become a grain of sand, while some become the stars in the sky
Clouds shadow and rain on you, and you just take it.


The reward of being ordinary
Is that among the various constraints and boundaries of people
In the tiny spaces of each day
You get to be you.


But at the end of everything, I ask
What is the point of being ordinary
If only the extra ordinary are the treasures of mankind?

~insight07

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Overflow


With a half eaten apple
I begin each day.
A slice of dismay on my lips
A look of displeasure in my eyes.
A planet of oceans I have become
With no land, no island
A constant pour that rises in me
The water is brimming, with nowhere to overflow.
In dreams, I see people
So many people.
It is an ocean of faces I have forgotten
Time is forgotten.

~insight07

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Thinking Crow

Blank beaded eyes look into the distance
Disturbing, its dark body flies above me
I feel the air from the movement
A light feather falling on my shoulder.
It focuses its blank stare at me
Kaw kaw kaw”
Calling in a tuneless monotone.
Bored, I sit and stare into space
Brown button eyes look into the distance.

The universe is vast, it has no limit
Upon a mountain sits a being
Ethereal, he smokes to bear the cold
In his mind exists existence-
A blue planet in a blue mind.
All being stretch and breath there-
Their physicality, their memories
Real to them, real to the world
But the world itself is neither flat nor round,
But a morsel of a thought.
The landscape of universe stretches beyond
A human can solve
This universe is limitless, because the mind is limitless
Imagination prevails above all.”

Kaw kaw kaw
The crow keeps chanting to me, like it is sharing the secret of the world
I keep thinking of the office meeting and my response to a question-
A silly question to me.
Do I believe in God?
I wonder if the crow thinks of God,
If it thinks at all.

~insight07

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Privilege



Miss Flower tells me of her privilege
Showing off her freshly washed and winded leaves.
She has grown taller, is more green now.
A sign of healthy life among the dead outside.
Mumma tried to revive a dry branch by digging it into the same soil as Miss Flower.
The drier the branch became, beauty bestowed itself on Miss Flower.
.
I keep looking at the body of the tree that has fallen.
Its branches have been cut into and stolen.
I remember the time it stood tall and proud, laughing with me each time I looked at it.
Every year, when I went to the Community Pandal during Pujo
To pray to a Durga Maa that kept decreasing in size (Economy is shrinking too)
This tree would make me happy, and blow me a kiss.
An old friend, that the storm took away.
.
Miss Flower tells me about the million trees who didn’t survive
Her empathy is praise-worthy.
She is happy doing her bit.
She is liking this new sunshine now that the storm has passed.


~insight07

This past one week has been awfully difficult. Dealing with the uncertainties of a new job, working from home, and the fear of the pandemic, was not easy in itself. My hometown got exposed to the cyclone of Amphan on 20/05/2020. I have never experienced such a thing. It is a trying time, with the limits of boundaries being tested.

I hope we come out humble and human post this.

(Originally posted on 22 May 2020)


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