There’s a tight sensation in my chest
My throat is dry,
I can’t breathe.
Atleast, I feel I can’t breathe.
(Respiration is timely and fine. )
The pressure on my neck increases
I can see the ground, feel the ground
Half a breath away
My hands twitch with the need to free
(They are still by my side)
I can’t feel below my ribs
Thump, thump, thump
My pulse races away.
(Its a bird flapping in my cage)
A deafening sound rings my ears-
How is my breath so loud?
How is there no breath?
My vision blurs, eyelids close in a rest I don’t feel
(I am at rest.)
Pins and needles up my spine.
My pillow by my side.
I wake up but I am still asleep.
Anxiety plays dirty tricks with me.
Sleeping has been a task these days. Increased anxiety over family, career, and of course, the state of India doesn’t really help. I look forward to a single day of rest without thoughts trying to puncture a hole in my skull.
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